So what has this journey been like for me?  I grew from a young girl in my late teens who was horrified at porn because of how I saw women being portrayed, to a tentative twenty year old who was inspired by porn to learn how to give really great fellatio, to a Priestess in my mid-thirties exploring the many ways sexuality wanted to be expressed through me and who imagined that film could somehow capture the beauty and artistry of really hot sex, of group sex, of same sex loving, of sex sealing a commitment, or sex for the sake of sex, to a middle forty year old opening my mind and my heart to bare all for the camera in order to help along the continuing and still much needed  sexual revolution.

So much has happened to bring me to this place of being willing to show myself sensually and sexually to the world.   I have had several lovers who have taught me so much about sex and loving, have worked with a shaman and many teachers.  I have actively explored my fantasies in an attempt to allow this life to be the place where my experience and artistry become one thing.   I have lived my art and continue to devote myself to living a life that is artful through being open to a range of experience and ways of being.

And now that I’ve made a film and sat at the first screening feeling my feelings as a roomful of people watched me loving and being loved, so many bits of shame left over from a society that labels those who would fuck for the camera has simply dissolved.  Seeing myself there, bold and beautiful and loving and laughing, I am even more convinced in the beauty of being able to witness others being sexual.  And how important the loving, laughing, authentic images of people in the act of love are to help all of us release from a past of repression.   I feel honored and deeply moved to be doing this work/play.  I feel honored and deeply moved to know that others will get to see the result of the years of growth that this work embodies for me.   I am proud to be an erotic film star!

Ten years ago I dreamed of creating beautiful, sacred and hot erotic films.  I dreamed that it would be me on the screen making love to lovers I held in my heart.  I dreamed of films that showed not only explicit sex, but also the deep love that sexual partners can have for one another.  I dreamed of making films that somehow expressed the feeling of  truly orgasmic sexual experiences.  I dreamed of films that would show what it is to love not only one lover, but several, not only one way of loving, but as many as could be dreamed up.  I dreamed of making films that reflected the world I lived in, loved in and was actively creating for myself.  Today, the dream is being realized.   What between ten years ago and this present manifestation created the potential for all this to happen?  How was the experience like or unlike how I imagined it to be?  What have I learned and how have I grown from the experience of conceiving and giving birth to this creative dream?  I will be exploring these questions and sharing my experiences of what it has been like to create, star in and release to the world explicit erotic films .   I hope that you enjoy my sharing!

In Joy, Kala